Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Wake up call
Friday, October 19, 2007
The matter with matter
Such is the consequence of contentment: no invention without necessity; no passion without desire; yada yada.... the Dalai Lama must be a very bored man, except, of course, boredom does not apply. Not to the likes of we who sail with the wind, we who rage with the storm and resound the stillness. We are creatures of inertia.
The great marvels of civilization are but signs of human restlessness, of malcontent, eternal monuments made to compensate for shameful mortality. Man never could face his own insignificance.
Show me a stubbornly stagnant society and I'll show you a perfectly happy one. A cosmic irony: the very quest for perfection is the one (and only) obstacle to attaining it.
My friends, nymphs and naiads, we are mayflies! Beautiful and short lived. Beautiful because we are short lived.
There is no wealth but in experience, no accomplishment but in feeling. Live to feel. And when you die, and can feel no more, let it be because you are filled to the brim with experience and must give up this shell for a larger one. What meaning has death to a life devoid of sensual, emotional experience, a life of emptiness?
So it appears that very few things matter; so let it be.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Queen's Night
You’re walking along
There are a couple of bars along the north side. They have smoky windows and dirty signs. You can’t see inside through the cigarmen and cigaretteers blocking the entrance. They used to be contained within the bars, but a law was passed that forced their release. They spread out from the doorway like weeds, dandelions, exhaling their pestilence in clouds of white, to float along with the breeze and choke the life out of beings elsewhere. The clouds give rise to more smokers, dotting the sidewalk, leaning against the walls, dangling over the curb.
You turn your gaze away and look east. It’s good to look where you are going in the middle of the night in an infested neighborhood. You know every shadow could be hiding a crack dealer, or a crack whore, pleasure for hire. Good job. You avoid tripping over a backpack laying in the middle of the sidewalk just a few steps ahead of you. It is in front of a taxi cab company, Diamond, rides for hire. You notice that you’re passing by a body shop, fixes for hire. Bent and twisted cars sulk silently in the small parking lot, awaiting their turn. You remember the building on the other side of the cab company was a paint store that burned down. All that remains is a broken shell that's now boarded up; nothing new has grown to replace it.
You think the backpack belongs to the pair of legs jutting out from the steps of the cab company’s entrance. The legs belong to a man, hunched over and fast asleep. He’s got a blanket draped across his thighs. It’s a chilly night and you wonder why he didn’t wrap himself with it. You get closer and realize that it’s not a blanket, but another person, a woman, also asleep, with her head in the man’s lap, and her shoes kicked off her feet and laying on their sides, like her.
You don’t get any closer. Instead you cross the street to the north side where your building is. You continue staring ahead. You don’t see anymore the man and woman asleep on the sidewalk; you don’t see anymore the haze embedded with smokers; you are blind to the boarded building and mangled cars. You tune them out; out of sight, out of mind. Now you enter the building and go up the elevator and into your apartment, your room, and your bed, where you tune out the rest of the world.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
embryonic
I think of the embryo at the end of 2001: A Space Odessy (the movie), and think of all mankind returning to an embryonic state. Not just man, but everything moving in a cycle, a swinging pendulum. The universe, expanding and contracting. Our yearly seasons, and eonic climate shifts, from global warming to ice age. Mankind, progressing and regressing, from space age to dark age.
It's all the same. Space, after all, is darkness.
I feel enlightened, and hit the snooze button (five times).
Monday, September 10, 2007
enesis
Let it be written so that it will matter.